Ok, like the title says, I'm definitely not very good at blogging, but I hope that I can better eventually. Life continues to go on, and time seems to get faster and faster. I am beginning to truly admire the gift of time, since it seems that most of the time it slips out of my hands. I have read my scriptures in the morning for the past two months. It seems that somehow, times stops while reading in a way, I don't feel like I'm running. When I look at the clock it has been longer than I thought it was! I have learned to appreciate the little moments of pondering that reading in the morning brings.
Lately, I have been feeling rather absent minded (evidence of writing this post over a month later), I feel as if somehow my life is involved with several different ones. Between the students I work with at work, and my clients, I have found myself thinking plenty of them. Since this started happening, I have decided to have some famous "self-care" as they call it. I have started running 3 times a week, which leaves me pretty tired but feeling renewed and ready for another day. I have also decided to start doing cross-stitching again as a past hobby of mine:) I still have to decide what to do, but I'm sure it will go somewhere in our living room.
Ok enough complaining, I feel extremely grateful! Even though life has been busy, I continue to feel blessed by a loving Heavenly Father. I have been thinking a lot the talk by Dennis E. Simmons "But if not" (highly recommend it!). It has made me ponder about the real meaning of trusting Him. I feel that sometimes we say we trust You...but please do it my way haha I have started working on asking for a spirit of acceptance of those things which I consider should be taken away; yet, might not be and still have faith in Him. Why shouldn't I? After all, He knows me better than I will ever know myself. This sentence has stuck with me "Men accomplish marvelous things by trusting in the Lord and keeping His commandments - by exercising faith even when they don't know how the Lord is shaping them" or should I say even when I don't know how the Lord is shaping me. Because I truly don't know sometimes, I just know that He is, and that knowledge gives me comfort.
I am grateful for this time in my life when I get to unify what I believe in, with my clients, my secular education, my marriage, and who I am as a daughter of God. It seems that within my sometimes chaotic life there is order, there is meaning, there is a sense of the greater, it is only a matter of being willing to pause open my eyes and truly see it.
Monday, April 19, 2010
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
After a 2 year abscence...
Hello everybody!
Well this is rather embarrassing....I left my blog alone for two years, shame on me. Well I had been thinking now for a couple of weeks that I should really write a blog again. Pretty much everything has changed since my last blog. Well at that point my loving boyfriend who was just meeting my family became my loving husband. We will be married for a year next month! Crazy I know. My little brother who had just arrived to BYU is now in Long Beach California serving a mission (amazing!). My parents have moved back and forth - as usual - and now the only family member I had living close to me is moving to Florida - which seems usual as well.
Since then I graduated from my Bachelors in Psychology from BYU and started my Masters in the field of Marriage and Family Therapy. It has been quite an adventure to say the least. My life became from busy to incredibly busy between homework, two jobs, housework, clients, my thesis, and my calling. Despite all of the things that seem to pull me into a million different directions, I can say that I have never grown so fast in my life. Past experiences had forced me to grow - or so I thought - but now it seems to me that I was just pushing them aside and moving on with my life. Now I realize that being in the MFT program has pushed me - if not forced me - to deal with past struggles and basically become a better, more centered person. Fortunately, I've had the company of my amazing husband to keep me sane, and to wipe my tears away when I get overwhelmed.
The Atonement of Christ took a new meaning to me as I have seen how it plays out for other people and not just myself. Being a witness for other people's pain has opened my heart to understand how Christ is a witness for ours, and while I am trying to be a healer, Christ is the only true source of healing which light I am trying to project. I have come to find that I can deeply care about people who are "strangers" to me, at the same time that they have shown me my inadequacies and my own fears. It has truly been an amazing experience, and between stress, laughs, and tears I can confidently say that I am being stretched and it is a paradoxical good feeling.
All for now, but I promise to keep you posted. Search to stretch yourselves.
Well this is rather embarrassing....I left my blog alone for two years, shame on me. Well I had been thinking now for a couple of weeks that I should really write a blog again. Pretty much everything has changed since my last blog. Well at that point my loving boyfriend who was just meeting my family became my loving husband. We will be married for a year next month! Crazy I know. My little brother who had just arrived to BYU is now in Long Beach California serving a mission (amazing!). My parents have moved back and forth - as usual - and now the only family member I had living close to me is moving to Florida - which seems usual as well.
Since then I graduated from my Bachelors in Psychology from BYU and started my Masters in the field of Marriage and Family Therapy. It has been quite an adventure to say the least. My life became from busy to incredibly busy between homework, two jobs, housework, clients, my thesis, and my calling. Despite all of the things that seem to pull me into a million different directions, I can say that I have never grown so fast in my life. Past experiences had forced me to grow - or so I thought - but now it seems to me that I was just pushing them aside and moving on with my life. Now I realize that being in the MFT program has pushed me - if not forced me - to deal with past struggles and basically become a better, more centered person. Fortunately, I've had the company of my amazing husband to keep me sane, and to wipe my tears away when I get overwhelmed.
The Atonement of Christ took a new meaning to me as I have seen how it plays out for other people and not just myself. Being a witness for other people's pain has opened my heart to understand how Christ is a witness for ours, and while I am trying to be a healer, Christ is the only true source of healing which light I am trying to project. I have come to find that I can deeply care about people who are "strangers" to me, at the same time that they have shown me my inadequacies and my own fears. It has truly been an amazing experience, and between stress, laughs, and tears I can confidently say that I am being stretched and it is a paradoxical good feeling.
All for now, but I promise to keep you posted. Search to stretch yourselves.
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